Why things are not the same for the pass few days?
im clueless......well....whats happening to me?
omg......i dnt knw whts going on....
im serious...yeah i get alittle workout a couple of times...
but....haiz...i dnt knw la....
i was alittle piss when u just walk without me...
so i told ahmad let walk our own way....
serious....im pissed...
thats why i told u to walk away without me....
what the point.......
why things for the pass few days are just not the same....
serious.....normal....hw?
well....im just confused.....dnt knw la whats going on....
haiz....what should i do?
love u...yes....
haiz....to me...maybe becoz of my upcoming bdae....
and pple are just doing their own thing.....i dnt knw hw to
put this in words....
ahakz....well...well lets talked bout my birthday.....
hmm.....im going to buy myself a present for myself....hahahhaa....
make my own crew shirt....ahakz.....crazy......yeah....thats wht im going to do....
k la....
gtg.....

well.....here am i....
well...i feel a little better today....
im sry...i didnt mean to hurt u....
its just that being in a relationship is not a small thing to me....
we dnt understand each other that well...
am i right to say tht?
relax....dnt stress urself too much....
i still love u...
its just that....i need to get myself ready.....
i dnt want to be in a relationship with u for a few months then we end up breaking up.....
i dnt want that......
let me ask u this....
do u knw whts true love?wht's true relationship?
when im with someone....i want that preson...
to be my soulmate,bestfren,buddies,enemies....ect........
once u reach that point...thats when the mutual understanding is there....
thats when we can compromise situations,trust..........
its hard...but when thta person im with reach that stage...thats when i knw tht.....
the relationship is going to last long.............
to me love is just not about being with someone u love,trust,be there when u are in need of someone,
sharing each others probs......there's more to that...........
well.....u'll knw what i mean if u're in my shoes.....
a shoe that's been through everything.........
gtg.....btw im going camping today.....to have some peace....and i'll be bck tmw.........
love u.....muacks..................................................and i miss u too.....

haiz....here am i...writing this blog with a disturbed mind....
i dnt knw whts wrong with me.....
why im like this?why is my life like this.....?
cn i just kill myself?yes...to u pple i might look like a happy go lucky person....
but...deep....down inside....im struggling......
to survive....i dnt knw why.....
why am i born in this family....
yes i knw its not a good thing to say...but....
i cnt take it anymore.....
watching other familys going out together...eating together...spending time together....
hurts me....to u guys...u pple might say...."hey u are not the only one"
but look....ask urself this...do u knw hw does it feels like when u are caught in te
middle...between parents fighting,going their own ways...
u dnt knw who to choose.....and after that...u end up living with one of them....
suffering....i just dnt  knw hw to put everything together......
argh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!forget it.....
i wish i cn just leave this world.....
be somewhere where there's happiness,love...everything.....
well...as for today...i didnt do much....went to work...then break....
after that....went somewhere....
away frm pple......DRINKING!!!!!!yes thats wht i did....and im still drinking now....
my 3rd bottle of vodka.....hahahaha.......
love.......am i prepare for that?
im still hurt....yes i love u...but...
i still need alot of time.....
seriously......
just dnt fall for me too much.....
an advice.....
dnt.....
when the time comes....
i'll decide if wana be with u or not....
im saying this coz...i dnt want to give u high hope on me.....
pls....
i knw it hurts..
dnt worry we'll still be the same....ntg will change....
i cn asure u that......
k la....i really gtg....wana finish my bottle....then maybe go for another one ltr.....
hahahahahahahahahahaahah!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
sob...sob...sob....sob....sob...........................

ola2......
well....i've been bz lately.....too tired to update my blog...ahakz.....
well...im doing ntg rite now....
just rotting myself at hm....heeeeeeeeeeee......
am going for my break pract ltr...
that ahmad is going to get it frm me....
for sure....
i'll make sure he cry.....grrr......
im so pissed with him.....
bloody idiot....
well....im missing her rite now....
hehehehe...wishing that she's beside me rite now.....
but ya..too bad.....
kla...continue this blog ltr at nite k....see ya!!!!!

yo............niggas and bitchies....
im back......
hahahaha.......well...
my day today...was....tiring!!!!!!!!!!!
went to work....
then after that i went for my dance pract at jyc....
hahahahaha......
fun...tiring....
yarr....
taught them a new style of dance.....
new style.....
hahahaha........
well...manage to get a routine...hahaha....
using i got a bottle song....
hahahahaha.......
now im showing them what im made of....
the old alfie is back....
with new shits.....
hahahahah.........kla gtg now im talking to my syg....
hahahahaha....my princess....
bye!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

yoyoyoyo........
sapaoski is back.....
sorry been mia ing.. for some time....
ahahkz......
bz...
with dance and bboying....
yeaaaaahhhhhhhh......................
well...
im breaking rite now while writing this bolg....
lol....
crazy....
well....im in love rite now....
with this gal....
a cutie pie....to me....
she's a dancer too....
like me....
well....how we end up like this.....
hahaha....its a long2....story.....
...........................................................
make it short????
nah......
kla........
im kinda distracted with the break beats here......
hehehehehe.....
fresh beats......
addictive ones too.......
gtg....
peace out niggas and bitches......hahahahaha........