STRUGGLING

here am i.....struggling....to keep my feelings....
missing her,missing the time we use to had,
missing her laughter...
everything.....
i told her to make a choice.....
so nw...i just have to wait...
if that thing which i've been wearing comes bck...
means its a gd thing...if not...
then i've to live with it.....
when......
how am i going to take it?
if u dnt like this or that....
u should have told me...
not keeping it to urself....
thats wrong....
speak out....
things wont solve by itself u knw......
well....its up to u knw....
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well...today....i went to sentosa...to relive some stress.....
well....it help abit.....
well....im still sad...
why are u doing this to me.......im crying here.... do u knw that....
there u are... wgoing out with other guys....
me?....crying......
well....my fren today...bought me a gift....a bdae gift....
THE ONLY GIFT I GOT THIS YEAR.....
AND I JUST KNW THEM!!!!!WOW........
im happy.................
........abit........
haiz....
i still cnt get over the bdae thing that i've got.....
wht to do.....
this is my life........
gd nite.....i wish to be alone tonite......